Stop for a while, breathe in, and just think. Ironic isn’t it? We’ve been thought to just think things through. You’ve been thinking a lot, haven’t you? I know you have, or maybe if you haven’t, you should?
It’s amazing to see how this boundary of analyzing things and going forward is getting thinner and thinner. It’s hard to find the perfect equilibrium of just going for it, or if you need to stop and think. Then again it’s a situational basis. The thing about thinking about your next move is that the longer you think the more your mind will wander and lose the point.
I’m a fan of planning out my decisions. It becomes an illusion though. At first, you’d feel like you’re being proactive, but after a while, you might not know it but you’re actually being reactive.
I’ve been through a lot these months. I’ve seen the highs and lows of life. It made me realize what Solomon was going through in the book of Ecclesiastes. If you haven’t read that go do, it’s a really ironic and deep piece of wisdom coming from Solomon and it would really make you think heavily and contemplate about life.
I’ve fallen into many deep pits, I’ve backslid so much as a Christian to the point that I’ve brought condemnation to myself. That shows how much I’ve grown apart because there’s no condemnation in Him.
I’ve hidden my sins from others and it only made it worse. I thought at first I had everything planned out, but like I said, it’s an illusion to think that you’re in control. When in reality, It’s God whose in control. I’ve brought myself lies and sugarcoated words that brought nothing else but grief. In the end, it was all my fault.
The beauty of falling? It’s that you’d see the light when you’re trapped in darkness. Yes, you’re afraid to go near it, but I assure you it’s a beautiful thing.
I don’t know what you’re going through right now. All I can tell you is whatever it is, there would always be that light. You’ll get through that, just keep on going. The moment that you would give up is the moment you’d have truly fallen. Stand up, stand tall.
Life is a river, sometimes you might not see where it’s heading but rest assured that in the end of that river is an ocean, a sea of endless opportunities, an ocean of grace and of love.
What’s my point? Regardless of what you’re going through just keep on going, but while you’re moving forward remember that rock on the road that made you fall, remember the little things and from it gain wisdom.
Once you’ve overcome that mountain you’d see the beauty of the valleys down below. Yet humble yourself knowing that you were once down in that valley and that there are greater mountains to overcome.
And as it is written in 1 Peter 1:10 as a reminder and to affirm you right now.
“And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you”
Just keep pushing forward. Stay strong, keep holding on. You will be restored.
I’d like to give special thanks to my close friends, who despite what I’ve done never condemned in any way, who prayed for me and guided me when I was lost, who lifted me up when I was down, and for reminding me that God will create miracles when sin is exposed in the light.
Just remember, no matter where you are His grace is enough. No matter where you are, you’re standing in his love. If it wasn’t for the spiritual foundations and these people closest to me I don’t know where I’d be right now and what I’ve done. Thank you. Above all else, I thank God for his unending love.
Just keep going. Just keep pushing forward. I believe in you, He believes in you. I love you, He loves you.